April Showers

This is a photo of me at my baby shower at the beginning of April. I look happy and I really truly was. When we recieved the diagnosis I didn’t think I would ever smile again. Let alone be belly laughing at my baby shower!!

I’ve posted this picture because I don’t want people to think that I was sad all the time. I wasn’t, there was far more laughter and smiling than there were tears. I could have cried every day if I’d of wanted. The tears were definitely there if i’d of wanted them. But I made a conscious decision not to. I wanted to be happy and positive… so I was.

In the few days that followed the diagnosis I really questioned if I’d of been able to face a baby shower. I really didn’t think I would of done. But as the days moved on, I reminded myself I was pregnant!! I had as much right to experience pregnancy as the next lady.

A week later I went for cake (big massive chocolate fudge) and coffee (decaf) with a close friend. Her and another close friend were going to suprise me with a baby shower but now she asked if it was still what I wanted. I told her that if she’d of asked a week ago I would have said no, but now I was determined to be ‘just’ pregnant. And this meant experiencing my pregnancy the way I would have done had we not had the diagnosis. I tried as much as was possible and appropriate to try and keep the two things separate. I couldn’t do this all the time, and it wouldn’t have been healthy too. But by doing it sometimes, it meant I could carry on enjoying my pregnancy.

The theme was April showers, and although it was so early in the year it was I gorgeous hot day. It was great, I had a wonderful time and was so grateful to everyone who came and had a part in organising it. Our little was well and truly spoilt.